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Anonymous — Mon, 13 Nov 2006 04:14:00 +0000

your a genius

By: Pat

Pat — Wed, 26 Jul 2006 17:08:00 +0000

Dear Mark,
I still haven't read through all of your helpful emotional healing articles. I'm working on it. In the past three years both of my parents died, I was diagnosed with carsinoma (slow growing skin cancer) and had it removed in three places and am fine, my son graduated from H.S., my other son has had an on and off problem with heroine addiction, I filed bankruptcy and to top that off, after we sold my mothers house, my own sister accused me of bankruptcy fraud, and the court nightmare is finally over, my son got my $30,000 inheritance and hasn't given me any.
I initially wrote to you, Mark, because I was looking at stopping Paxel about a year ago. I was on it for one year. I had alot of anxiety over the way my father died. He went in for hip surgery and ended up with brain damage and on life support until my sister, mother & I had to make the awful decision to stop his life support. Then we found out my father hadn't left any provisions for my mother except the house they owned. I found myself being my mothers only means of the outside world and after going through 4 months in the hospital with my father, then also dealing with my sons heroine addiction, I told my doctor that I couldn't handle it anymore. Well I went off Paxel last summer in 2005 and had absolutely no problem. But I am starting to wonder if I should go back on it after all that I've just been through again this past year. I was so stressed out over the court thing, that I even got into an accident. Nobody was hurt but it shook me up knowing that my mind was so full of trying to figure out how to deal with everything and everybody could make me not concentrate on what I'm doing. I've found it easier to not deal with things. I told myself that I would never talk to my sister again after what an evil thing she did. She and my brother have always treated me terribly. My mother knew and would tell me her reasoning. She said they were jealous of me because i was the youngest and got more. In later years we all found out the real underlying reason. My brother and sister had a different father and nobody even knew it until we were all adults. But anyway, I was just telling myself about a week ago that I need to forgive my sister and ask her forgiveness if there was something I ever did to hurt her ( not intentionally). Then I find out that she went behind my back regarding having my parents ashes buried. We had agreed to have them buried in their hometown in MI. My sister lives in FLa. She had the ashes shipped to Fla. and had a woman from the cemetary call me and ask me to sign a consent form so they could be buried in Fla. I didn't know when, where, how & to hear it from a stranger. Then I changed my mind about forgiving my sister because she's just evil. I told her where she could go and how could she be so selfish. I hung up on her and needed time to think. Later that day, my son told me that he had found out that very day from my moms old neighbor that my sister was dying because her lung cancer has come back a third time. I felt terrible for telling her where to get off. I called her and did go through with my original expressions of forgiving so that I could feel at peace but she said so many lies and awful things to me on the phone that day that I just know that I never want to speak to her again.
I think I am depressed. I have good days but mostly, I don't want to go anywhere or do anything except around the house. I have so much to do here anyway so I suppose it's good. This is getting too long so I'll end it at that. But, sometimes I get so upset when something sets me off, all of these bad things come rushing in and I hyperventilate or can't concentrate or just go numb. I still believe in what Dr. Wayne Dyer said in one of his books. Stay away from the people who make you feel bad. That's what I've tried to do but somehow I am surrounded by them. Maybe I'll move to Oregon someday

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